Sometimes you get this feeling in life when you feel everything’s going right. All you ever wanted you have. You have this happy vibe about everything around, and it shows in your smile, it shows on your face, in your eyes. It shows in the way you talk to everybody around... I guess you just tend to pass on that happy vibe. You are happy and nothing can change it. You start thinking – Wow! My life couldn’t get better than this! People around you see that you have this unusual glow, you have a contagious smile. And they envy that about you. But you don’t give a damn because you are happy and nothing can change it. Or atleast that’s what you feel…
All that you wish for happens just the way you were hoping it would. You don’t really expect to do well in your recent exams, but you end up topping your class. Your all time crush starts noticing you, even comes up to you and talks to you... You are on top of the world. You get to know each other...You know how it is, the all day all night texting. Doodling his name in your notebook in class, calculating your love percentage and when it says 93%, you can’t hide your grin (although you know it is the silliest game). In a few weeks you start dreaming about your future with him, about how he would make the perfect boyfriend... and you feel you have found ‘the one’. You can’t wait for him to ask you out because that’s all you’ve been dreaming about. And when he actually does you are the happiest thing on earth. You start smiling to yourself whenever you think of him (which is almost all the time). You are dancing in the shower; you suddenly like the cheesiest romantic flicks even if you are a diehard action fan. You start dressing up in the way you think he would fall in love even more, when he compliments you and you blush, the people around say they make such a cute couple and you become happier. The girls envy you and try to attract him, but he has eyes only for you and you know that. This is the happiest time of your life… or is it?
Days go by, weeks go by, months go by and slowly you both get busy with your own lives. You used to be each other’s lives. What happened now? You try to search for answers but you can’t seem to find any. Something seems to be missing… the magic seems to be missing now. You know you like each other, but is it still like before? Is it still the same? You push the thoughts out of your head, not wanting to think of it anymore. You wonder if he is thinking the same way. Days pass by, and it still is the same weird feeling. You decide to talk. When you do, you know that he feels the same way… you’ll are not ready to give up so soon. But you know it’s over deep within. It’s dead now… all that you have is the ’awkward silence’ with each other. You’ll decide to end it now, because you both know it’s for the best. Although the pain you feel is worse than any pain you ever felt. And this isn't anything like the pain of a massive injection, it’s the pain you feel in your heart that hurts the most. The feeling of giving up something you once cared for more than life itself, something you dreamt would last forever. That pain cannot be described in words...
You still see each other everyday though. And it’s extremely hard to face each other, because all the old memories start flooding your minds. Every time that you look at him it all hits you like one big blow in your face. You know what happened has happened for the best, of course you’ll take time to get on with life the way it used to be, but you know you will.
Sometimes things change, things you thought never would. And when they do you feel like it’s all over, it’s the end of everything. These things you feel like holding on forever but sometimes it’s not in your hands to decide. Maybe if you open your eyes and look around, you will see that you still have all the people in your life who love you more than anything. And its these people who matter. Everybody has to face changes, and you learn to live with it. Or rather grow around it. But ultimately you do, whether you choose it or not.
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